What orWho isGod in your opinion? asked an excogitating engineer


What or Who is God in your opinion? asked an excogitating engineer

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The following article is in response to a question put by an excognitatingengineer@gmail.com at 7.01 p.m. on Aug.1, 2011

These words are in reply to the question he put. 


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what or who God is – here is my humble opinion.  I feel I am there in this body; but I do not know where I am in this body.  If the hands, legs, thighs, ears eyes and nose, and teeth etc. are removed; I may be still there  If the heart is replaced by another heart, I may still be there.
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 It is not understandable what I am. Some people say that every 7-yearall your cells are replaced … that every seven years your “body chemistry” changes, making you susceptible to new allergies.  It is believed that hemoglobin dies in four months giving place to newer ones.  Blood, changing, flesh changing, even teeth and bones undergoing both the process catabolism and anabolism.  Though not synchronized, mind and reason are subjected to incessant changes.  Here are the pictures of Gloria Stuart, the Actress of  `Titanic`.

We cannot say what is true. Major particles of life are undergoing changes every second; otherwise the young people would not wither out day after day.  This changing

material cannot be “I”.  The changing ego cannot be “I”.  

Though unknowingly, every one of us seems to be in search of oneself.

The contents of the human body are somewhat analogical to a river whose water is perennially changing.  Standing on the bank of the river we never realize that the contents of the river are ever engaged in the process of change.  Its banks too are subjected to changes with the passage of time.

Look at the globe.  Every second approximately one hundred persons are leaving their bodies and approximately an equal number appears as newly born ones with an unknown destiny.  The sick and the healthy, the weak and the strong, the rich and the poor, the rulers and the humble ones and high or low – all are subjected to the eternal process of death.

In this ever-changing world it is difficult to understand where the “I” is.

The inner thoughts are changing at every moment. 

If we sit for a while with our eyes closed, and observe what we are speaking and listening to, simultaneously also taking a note of who or what we are looking at.  I may find myself planning what I shall talk to my boss so that he feels flattered and pleased.  Hoarding money and buying a new comfortable house where I shall be welcoming my friends who will then be respecting and loving me more than ever. They will talk about me.  But I may fall short of money.  I will go to mother who will help me with money.  But my mother loves my younger sister more, who will prevent mom from helping me. I am sure of my dad.  I shall say, “Dad, I have done so much because of you.  But for your help I shall be in a miserable condition in my life.”  Dad will say, “Don’t worry,  Joseph,  you will get every help” My boyfriend was saying,”Michelle,,  when are you moving in with me?”   Next month  I will get job.  My employer is a director general.  He seems pleased with me in every way.  He can create any job for me.     Once I am having full time job, I shall tell Joseph to marry me, otherwise I shall say that I will marry another boy friend.   According to the Tarot Astrologer I will get also a very good house.  


When I have a good house, men will be after me.  Job, money house – what more will these boy friends have!  Everybody says I am very pretty. Donald was saying that I could easily win “Miss Country Contest”. 

 Dear readers, it is flow of mind, never stopping.  One thing or the other is always there.   Let me ask myself. Am I having an  ever changing mind or a stable mind.?  or  I am somewhere else?.  The house, the boss, the job, the boss, the bride or employee, what am I thinking of? r

 Getting married I shall start dreaming of a baby.  Where is the location of  `”I”.   It is me but `”Me” is not visible or understandable.  Unless we break away from ego, sex and greed, this non-stop voice and scenes or sights will continue to play within ourselves.  The internal audiovisual media are always at play.

 If we want to know ourselves, we will have to get rid of all the desires.  I or Me is wrapped up in desires.  The moment desires are gone, the mind will evaporate as though it never existed.   Then and then alone we may find our answers.  How and who can get freedom from desires?

We are slaves in the kingdom of desires. Perhaps in that stage of freedom we may feel that we are in everybody; everybody and everything is within us.  Nothing will be understandable as long as the ego along with its  multiple branches in form of desires does not disappear.

The discussion may go  very long and boring.  The eyes can only see but not hear.  The ears can only hear but not see.   The tongue can create sound but not see or hear. The body and skin can only touch or hug or embrace but can neither see nor hear.  The nose can only smell and can report nothing else.

Our mind is the recorder of all these five reporters.  Its job is to record and keep playing in the background without any interval. The memory of the records makes the mind analyse what is good or bad, favourable or unfavourable. If eyes cannot hear, ears cannot see, nose cannot taste; how can we expect the imprisoned mind to see God!!!  It may imply that we need to go beyond mind.  The mind need not have its existence.  Perhaps it is a formidable barrier.


The thoughts are also ever changing.  They may appear identical but are never the same.  The current of thoughts is also uninterrupted.  If this is the state of affairs with the physical as well as the mental body, who is ‘I’?  One knows ‘I’ through the thoughts only.  If the current of thoughts were to stop, what one recognizes, as ‘I’ would no longer be there.  The indefinable entity that stays ever unchanged and is just the observer of these changes through the thoughts, which do not have any existence, is GOD. 

Who among us wants to see God; we are all afraid of  losing our existence.  I need to keep quiet; I have been too loquacious. Please read this post as my humble submission.LIKE THIS:

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Do we really love?


Dear Readers,

I feel all of us are attracted to the word “love’.  Love is really great and can be considered to be something unique beyond description.   People see love in sex, which is required for reproduction.  We should not forget that we are gifted with many other things for example, sympathy, feeling the pain of the dear ones, willing to help the downtrodden or the destitute.  We feel love also for pets like cats, dogs, birds like parrots.                                    



Let us ask ourselves, who do we love?  How much love for the motherly figure will ooze out and how much will be the  flow of our  love towards the ordinary young woman?  We should be able to judge where our love is stationed?  We should be able to judge where

our love is stationed?  Women can also assess themselves, if they wish. The scholarly white man and muscular black man are there in picture? One may  try judging oneself.

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Unfortunately a few of us speak

of love in some restricted areas which leads us away from the right track of life.  This book has been written to tell my experiences of love in some other areas of life.  God also loves us but we do not reciprocate.  It is for this reason that we do not feel His Love.  If we do not feel that we get something from Him, It is just because we do not ask Him for .   Though  we ask Him for something at  certain times  but we do not get just because we  do not wait for Him.   We do not wait for Him because we do not have faith in Him.

Let us ask ourselves, who do we love?  How much love for the motherly figure will ooze out and how much will be the  flow of our  love towards the ordinary young woman?  We should be able to judge where our love is stationed?  Women can also asses themselves, if

 they wish. The scholarly white man and muscular black man are there in picture?  try judging oneself.



Unfortunately a few of us speak of love in some restricted areas which leads us away from the right track of life.  This book has been written to tell my experiences of love in some other areas of life.  God also loves us but we do not reciprocate.  It is for this reason that we do not feel His Love.  If we do not feel that we get something from Him, It is just because we do not ask Him for .   Though  we ask Him for something at  certain times  but we do not get just because we  do not wait for Him.   We do not wait for Him because we do not have faith in Him

Let me agree with all of us, the pull  between is really love and the pleasure involved in union is really really great?   But it occurs to me: what does it mean to us when we read,”God is Love, Love is God”?   Certainly somewhere we are confused.  The answers are there in the book.  On a website we have to have general discussions.  I have tried raising questions for the major part leaving philosophy for future.

Let me agree with all of us, the pull  between man and woman is really love and the pleasure involved in union is really really great?   But it occurs to me: what does it mean to us when we read,”God is Love, Love is God”?    We cannot stay honestly for  more than a small time with  a single woman. We are  bored and look for another companion.  When I was a student in India, my landlord who was in his sixties told me that  he had slept with  over one hundred women.    West is far  more advanced in these matters.  Examining the star study of a woman in the western world, I told intuitively, “You may have slept with 50 persons”.  Next day the girl came to me to show the list of the names of the men who had so far shared their bed with her.   She said that it  was exactly 50.   Another  chaste woman was standing nearby. I exclaimed with surprise,”Fifty_ _ _”.  She replied calmly, in this western world two to three hundred is a normal number.”

Let us ask ourselves,”is it love? Were we born for this purpose?  What else are we doing here?  Have we not damaged the sanctity of love?  Are we not defiling essence of this word that had to represent something of Divinity?”  The selfless love of great mothers for the children, the love of  noble hearts for the suffering human beings.   The love of  Jesus for the sufferers.  The love of a big number of Prophets, saints and many unknown persons.   Do we mean to equate our lust  to the only noble sentiment known to us?

Certainly somewhere we are confused.  If sex is love and God also is love, we seem to imply that sex can be equated to God.  Is it the language of infatuation or the language of reality?   Perhaps we seem to cross the boundaries of the Freudian understanding of sexual phenomenon. 


The answers are there in the book but not in a direc mannert.  On a website we have to post general discussions.  I have tried raising questions for the major part leaving philosophy for future.  We all need to study our past and present. Let us ask ourselves individually, “What have I gained through all these years?

What has this act of pleasure given me?  I do know that the pleasure is momentary – will there ever be an end of this proclivity?  Is there nothing superior to this act?  Will anybody get addicted to drug, if this act were so great?  What for, are the people spending a huge amount of money to get a perfect partner for a single day?  Isn’t it something like mirage?  These words are equally true for both sexes.  If there is no gain why should we spend the precious moments of the precious human life?  We are our own teachers, if we don’t study the book written on our consciousness, no body will be able to help us.  Can God help those who don’t help themselves?

I have put tacit questions, which you may be able to read between the lines.

.to be continued